This morning at 2:30AM, I got out of bed, grabbed the Ziploc bag containing two of Ma Seguin's homemade biscotti, got in my car, and started to drive away from the area that had been my home for the past five years.
The drive was quick, thanks to the company of my sister. We used to spend a lot of time together in a car, since, 15 years ago, we drove 45 miles to school and back everyday. This morning, she and I chatted, sang some of our favorite songs, and silly-danced as best as two women can dance while sitting in a car for eight hours.
Once I got to my destination-yes, the mortuary- and reunited with a man I have really, really missed for the past two-and-a-half weeks, I started to relax. Then, the sleepiness took over.
I woke up in a drool-soaked pillow about an hour after I laid down in my bed. Although I felt more rested than before, I was still in a dream-like state. It is difficult for me to grasp the idea that San Diego is once again my home.
Speaking of homes, I continued on with the day by going house-hunting. As much as I enjoy the hunt, it is as difficult as it looks on House-Hunters. When I watch the show, I always get upset at people who I consider to be too picky. "C'mon! Be happy you can even afford a house," I say out loud to the people on the television. Now, I have become that annoyingly picky person, and I hate that.
Once I ruled out the idea of buying the houses I looked at today, I went back to the mortuary. My desk area is under construction, but should be ready for my first day of work on Monday. There is so much to learn, and I am still not very confident that I will be able to work in an environment similar to the one that used to give me nightmares as a child. However, there is a sense of peace that I am where I need to be for this time in my life.
Today is the first of many flights this sparrow will take. Today is the first day on my journey to find out how to better prepare for the ultimate bowl of applesauce.
I invite you to journey with me, as I chart new territory in my career, my geography, my relationships, and my faith.
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ReplyDeleteSounds like you had an eventful first day! Hopefully you will find a house that fits your taste, and everyone is picky when buying a house; believe me, the stories I have on that subject! If you’re not so sure about confidence in your work area, just think of Batman... he was afraid of bats, but used/controlled his fears and it got him very far! (I mean, he has three movies, and many comic books! Silly stuff aside, best wishes to the start of a new chapter in your life’s story!
ReplyDelete(Sorry, this doesn’t rhyme... too tired.)
Each journey begins with faith
carried through with hope
fulfilled with sincerity
and when accomplished, gazed at in wonder.
The wondrous sparrow
sets off once again
to a place that calls to it,
a place it now calls home.
Though the people it left behind
they always will cherish the memories,
and will keep in their hearts forever
the way the sparrow touched their lives.
Life is full of thousands of journeys
some long, some short
but all lead to the end
which is worth the entire trip.
The first flight, might be rough
but soon, in the air, soaring
it all seems worth it
and it pays off.
So fly, fly high sparrow
soar to new horizons
fulfill your dream, your destiny
and land when you are proud.